Archive for May, 2008

A Song


2008
05.12

Now when I was a young man I carried me pack
And I lived the free life of the rover.
From the Murray’s green basin to the dusty outback,
Well, I waltzed my Matilda all over.
Then in 1915, my country said, “Son,
It’s time you stop ramblin’, there’s work to be done.”
So they gave me a tin hat, and they gave me a gun,
And they marched me away to the war.

And the band played “Waltzing Matilda,”
As the ship pulled away from the quay,
And amidst all the cheers, the flag waving, and tears,
We sailed off for Gallipoli.

And how well I remember that terrible day,
How our blood stained the sand and the water;
And of how in that hell that they call Suvla Bay
We were butchered like lambs at the slaughter.
Johnny Turk, he was waitin’, he primed himself well;
He showered us with bullets, and he rained us with shell —
And in five minutes flat, he’d blown us all to hell,
Nearly blew us right back to Australia.

But the band played “Waltzing Matilda,”
When we stopped to bury our slain,
Well, we buried ours, and the Turks buried theirs,
Then we started all over again.

And those that were left, well, we tried to survive
In that mad world of blood, death and fire.
And for ten weary weeks I kept myself alive
Though around me the corpses piled higher.
Then a big Turkish shell knocked me arse over head,
And when I woke up in me hospital bed
And saw what it had done, well, I wished I was dead —
Never knew there was worse things than dying.

For I’ll go no more “Waltzing Matilda,”
All around the green bush far and free —
To hump tents and pegs, a man needs both legs,
No more “Waltzing Matilda” for me.

So they gathered the crippled, the wounded, the maimed,
And they shipped us back home to Australia.
The armless, the legless, the blind, the insane,
Those proud wounded heroes of Suvla.
And as our ship sailed into Circular Quay,
I looked at the place where me legs used to be,
And thanked Christ there was nobody waiting for me,
To grieve, to mourn and to pity.

But the band played “Waltzing Matilda,”
As they carried us down the gangway,
But nobody cheered, they just stood and stared,
Then they turned all their faces away.

And so now every April, I sit on my porch
And I watch the parade pass before me.
And I see my old comrades, how proudly they march,
Reviving old dreams of past glory,
And the old men march slowly, all bones stiff and sore,
They’re tired old heroes from a forgotten war
And the young people ask “What are they marching for?”
And I ask meself the same question.

But the band plays “Waltzing Matilda,”
And the old men still answer the call,
But as year follows year, more old men disappear
Someday, no one will march there at all.

Waltzing Matilda, waltzing Matilda.
Who’ll come a-waltzing Matilda with me?
And their ghosts may be heard as they march by the billabong,
Who’ll come a-Waltzing Matilda with me?

A bit of political hillarity


2008
05.11

Okay, THIS is funny. Yes, I know, it is “evyil” because it has “Heetler” in it. I know, how DARE I defame Hillary Clinton or promote someone else doing so :-0 I do it because it’d frigging HILARIOUS!! Kudos to the genius who made it!!

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And the Band played on…


2008
05.10

Wow! No matter which side of something I take, it seems people get bent. My recent blog about my friend who did the “suspension” thing has honked some off. My brother says I’m a “liberal” and I have to laugh at that. As far as the friend goes, I just can’t talk to them now — I know I’ll give in and they don’t need that. Hey, maybe I’m wrong here, I don’t know. I’m not the fount of all knowledge — I only know I have to go where my conscious takes me.

On Other Fronts
Thanks to one of our webmasters donating some money for it, we now have a good, updated copy of the gallery program for the site. Hopefully, we can get it to do everything we need it to do. Seems better and more stable than the version we had. I was just using that anyway until we could afford the real thing.

Rain
I like rain and it’s been giving me what I like. Alas, sure makes the grass grow and that’s $35. a pop… no, I can’t do it myself. It takes at LEAST 3-4 hours to do and it’s getting dark when I get home. Besides, the guy who does my lawn can do it in like 20 minutes. I know, you probably think I’m a lazy bastard.

I hurt, I’m tired (along with something neat)


2008
05.06

Too much time at the keyboard, getting nothing else done 🙁 Yeah, I got the Frontier area moved over to the Portal, but crikey, it took like 2-3 hours. I’m so procrastinating moving the WW2 section as I KNOW it will take the better part of a DAY 🙁 Ack! So, I do the other time areas and sort of side-step WW2. Yes, I know, I’ll have to get to it, but dammit, not right now.

Civil War needs to happen soon — so does 1600-1800! :-0 I’ll get it… a little bit at a time. Right now, they’re hooked together w/ a kludgy fix using links at the top and bottom — something to fix one of these days. I don’t really know how to do it, but a friend does. Soon.

Something(s) neat!
I got an e-mail from Lats & Atts about their online radio station and it IS kewl! Go here and enjoy!! I love it… I can listen to this music in the background and it helps sooth my mind.

Another kewl thing that I found out about today (on my high school alumni list) was freecycle.org a site that has all these yahoogroup lists that allow people to GIVE stuff they no longer need, away to someone who DOES need it. Kind of like a barter system w/ out the barter. Can you tell I like barter and things like this 🙂 The government steals enough money from me already… I think!

A sad day… (emotionally draining, don’t read if that bothers you)


2008
05.05

What can I say? I dunno… a friend, a GOOD friend is following the path to doom. Will they go all the way? I don’t know. I worry that the answer is “yes.” Lately, this person has been doing things to hurt themself, pursuing destructive behaviours and just, trying to seek attention and help, but then not allowing anyone TO help 🙁 Heavy drinking, cutting, tattoos and piercings, but the latest, is this: suspension… maybe you don’t know what it is, but I’ll tell you:

Here is the description from suspension.org:

The act of suspension is hanging the human body from (or partially from) hooks pierced through the flesh in various places around the body.

There are many different reasons to suspend, from pure adrenaline or endorphin rush, to conquering ones fears, to trying to reach a new level of spiritual consciousness and everything in between. In general, people suspend to attain some sort of “experience”.

Some people are seeking the opportunity to discover a deeper sense of themself and to challenge pre-determined belief systems which may not be true. Some are seeking a right of passage or a spiritual encounter to let go of the fear of not being whole or complete inside their body.

Others are looking for control over their body, or seek to prove to themselves that they are more than their bodies, or are not their bodies at all. Others simply seek to explore the unknown.

I am sorry, but this is wacky! I know, I know… the Sioux did this crap (if you’ve ever watched “A Man Called Horse,” you’ve seen a version of this called “o-kee-pa), it was as a torture, to prove you were/could be a warrior. I don’t care, the idea that this will lead to enlightenment is just plain bullshit. And I don’t care what the practitioners of this mutilation think either – all it is, is a way to experience pain and get some kind of acceptance in doing so.

Hurting for Attention
Many people try to hurt them selves for attention – my friend was one. “Cutting” is one of those things. Here is a good description of cutting from (BTW, my friend is also a “cutter”) kidshealth.org:

What Is Cutting?

Injuring yourself on purpose by making scratches or cuts on your body with a sharp object — enough to break the skin and make it bleed — is called cutting. Cutting is a type of self-injury, or SI. Most people who cut are girls, but guys self-injure, too. People who cut usually start cutting in their young teens. Some continue to cut into adulthood.

People may cut themselves on their wrists, arms, legs, or bellies. Some people self-injure by burning their skin with the end of a cigarette or lighted match.

When cuts or burns heal, they often leave scars or marks. People who injure themselves usually hide the cuts and marks and sometimes no one else knows.

Why Do People Cut Themselves?

It can be hard to understand why people cut themselves on purpose. Cutting is a way some people try to cope with the pain of strong emotions, intense pressure, or upsetting relationship problems. They may be dealing with feelings that seem too difficult to bear, or bad situations they think can’t change.

Some people cut because they feel desperate for relief from bad feelings. People who cut may not know better ways to get relief from emotional pain or pressure. Some people cut to express strong feelings of rage, sorrow, rejection, desperation, longing, or emptiness.

Maybe I’m bad, maybe I’m wrong not to accept this, but I don’t think so. I think this person wants my reaction and worry and such. I think I have enough in my life to worry about without being fed on by someone who is fast becoming (if not already) an emotional vampire. I love them to death, like a sibling, but enough is enough. When this person decides to come out of the dark and live life again, I’ll be here. I’m not taking this journey… Sorry Mr. Conductor, but let me off this train. 🙁

On the Good Side of Today
So, now that I’ve bummed you out, now that I’ve depressed you, let me just say that my life is looking up and I am taking time to smell the fresh-cut grass! Tonite, I went and had a beer with my brother Kent (someone I have known for 34 years). We went to town earlier as his car was broken and had a good time today. For too long, we weren’t really and now we are again. I missed him! “Never work for friends nor hire them” is what they say… it might have worked if the “big boss” wasn’t the way HE is. Oh well.

“A Red-Headed Slut”
Also, Kent introduced me to a new drink I’d never had… “A red-headed slut” which is Jägermeister, peach schnapps and cranberry juice. Very, very smooth! I even had two! :-Þ Normally, I am NOT a Jägermeister fan, but this was good!

I’m gonna sign off for now… it feels good to blog and I miss it when I don’t have a chance. If you’re reading this and would like to comment, please do, even if it’s only in an e-mail…
Best, Marsh

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Is it Time?


2008
05.01
Is it Time?

…I was not angry since I came to France Until this instant.
Take a trumpet, herald; Ride thou unto the horsemen on yond hill;
If they will fight with us, bid them come down
Or void the field; they do offend our sight.
If they’ll do neither, we will come to them
And make them skirr away as swift as stones
Enforced from the old Assyrian slings;
Besides, we’ll cut the throats of those we have,
And not a man of them shall we take
That shall taste our mercy.
Go and tell them so.

Henry V, Act IV, scene vii

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Dueling


2008
05.01
Dueling
So, if dueling were legal, would you? With whom? With what weapons? I sure bet that if dueling WERE legal today, people would be a damn site politer in this country/world. Rudeness rules the day and no one seems to care anymore. And in the work place, more and more it seems, employers are once again starting to believe their egos that we're all their personal slaves or serfs. >:-0 Am I alone in my beliefs here? I think not! Now I'm sure some reader will gasp in horror at my notions -- just like when 9-11 happened and I suggested crucifying terrorists... "Oh the horror Marsh, how could you?"
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Marriage Musings


2008
05.01
(Some of this (the marriage part anyway) was typed out on my cell phone whilst sitting in Pizza Hut tonight during an argument with my wife):

Why is marriage so painful? I think part of it is the needs of the "me" being subordinated to the "we" and the "me" getting shortchanged by the other "me." Each "me" needs things which are NOT important to the other "me."

Not Nearly So Profound
Of course, the above, when re-read out of the moment is not nearly so profound... As usual, money issues rear their ugly head :-( Tomorrow is our 10th Anniversary... doesn't seem that long most of the time, but then if you think on it, why it WAS that long :-0 I remember Tim Fensch telling me that about the 7th year you'd hate each other and you just had to grit your teeth and tough through it. When, pray tell, does this part end? I am tired of gritting my teeth... At least if I weren't a driver, I could smoke some weed :-) Oh well.

Northern Virginia
So, in the morning, we are driving down to Annandale to the park where we got married... haven't been there since 1999 when we moved away. :-0 I liked Annandale, but now it's kind of like Korea-town and has a lot of gangs and crap :-( That blows. When I moved to Annandale, it was a nice place... Hell, Thurgood Marshall, the Supreme Court justice lived there. Now, the "progress" of Northern Virginia's "boom" has kind of messed up the feel of the area.

Progress?
Well, it's called that, but I don't think so. Progress means going forward and things getting better, not worse. Watch out "world leaders" remember the Czar.

Food Riots and Upheaval
Have you noticed the large amount of food riots going on all over the world in the past few months -- this could get really interesting. I was noticing it in the paper the other day and thinking about it. There will reach a point where things will break down. I wonder if our idiot leader (who I voted for btw), will break with his oil cronies and finally come to the realization that the country is in deep shite! We need his leadership, not the Bush/Clinton way of "looking out for your buddies." Every day, the gas prices are climbing higher and I read in the papers how the oil companies are making record profits and they JUSTIFY it as okay?! What crap!! I sure hope another collapse of the oil industry happens like in the '80s; them Bastards!!

It seems we're in for an interesting ride this summer... wonder when the mass demonstrations will happen in DC? Think "W" will hang in there or bug out of town... You KNOW most of the idiots in congress will bug out. Parasitical scum!